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   Posted 10/4/2008 9:06 PM (GMT -6)   
i have never felt so low in my whole life. I hate myself so much. i'm not very good at school, i hate my family, i hate my friends, i hate school, i hate my job and i just lost the only chance i had to be in an actual relationship with a guy im in love with.
ive decided im not going to therapy anymore because there's no point. i sit there and i can't bring myself to talk. its a waste of time. my family irritates me to no extent and i just cry all the time because i hate everything. i realize i have to make some big changes in my life, and that's really scary. ive never felt so confused and helpless and hopeless before. i feel like i dont deserve anything or anyone.
i can't bring myself to be happy and to enjoy the things i have in life. sometimes, a lot of times, i have bad thoughts.
how can i get out of this rut? how can i just talk to people normally to fix things?
-Daily Migraine Headaches-
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Date Joined Dec 2007
Total Posts : 191
   Posted 10/4/2008 11:27 PM (GMT -6)   
i really appreciate everyones help.
-Daily Migraine Headaches-
-Chronic Pain-
Daily Amitriptyline
"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars."

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Date Joined Oct 2008
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   Posted 10/5/2008 4:54 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi I'm new here, but I'm not a newbie to depression. I hate that you feel so bad, and I wish I could help you and so many other people. I feel its easier to talk to people over the web rather than try to talk to people we know. People we know always say the same things, but people we don't know are somewhat on the outside looking in and always give the best advice. I've read several forum posts on here and everyone looks great and helpful! I personally feel that typing up a huge post of your problems is the best thing to do as far as talking normally about things. It helps to get it out of your system and out in the open a bit. Share everything you feel comfortable about sharing with those out in the world and it will touch the hearts of those that have been there too and perhaps they can help you feel better and get you started in taking the steps that would allow you to change your life. Do you know when and how your depression first started? I think it's best to go back to the beginning of any situation and find out where things went wrong. From there is leads to a snowball effect and just keeps packing on the pain. Once we realize whats happened in our lives it helps, well helped me, go back and think about what I could have done to stop it (If Anything). Then that will lead to another step in finding the peace you need. From your signature I would think that the Chronic Pain lead to the depression which lead to stress also and thus the migraines came from that. Which in turn leads to alienating the ones you care about or outright feeling like you hate them. This is all just speculation though I'm no doctor or therapist, but I try to help any way I can. If ever need someone to talk to you can reply here or you can email me at:

You can contact me anytime and I'll get back to you asap. Hang in there honey! One day things will look up!

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   Posted 10/5/2008 6:48 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi there BTE,

Have you considered trying a different psychologist? Maybe the problem was that there wasnt a bond between you but you might find it easier to bond with someone else? Also, have you considered starting/changing medications? I think you have a serious problem on your hands and you need to talk to someone (besides us) about it. We can listen and advise you but we cant treat you and I think that is what you desperately need right now.

Please keep talking to us

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   Posted 10/5/2008 10:41 AM (GMT -6)   


Good Morning and I am sorry you are in a dark place right now but please don't give up.  We are here for you and we will help you as much as we can.

I agree with Darren, you do need to stay in therapy and changing therapist may be a good way to go. Also evaluation of your medications is certainly called for.

Please don't stop seeing a professional.

Keep talking to us.




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