I am sorry you are going through a rough time. First of all leave the past in the past, you cannot go back and change history and if your Mom and Dad are still together then let them worry about their relationship. Stay in the moment and do not let fears of abandonment rule.
Remember yesterday is gone and tomorrow is not here yet so live in today.
Why do relationship breakups hurt so much, even when the relationship is no longer good? Whatever the reason for a breakup , coping can be a challenge, because even a disappointing relationship starts out with an emotional investment in what could be. Serious relationships begin on a high note of excitement and hope for the future. People invest time, energy, plans, dreams and hope for the future in love relationships. When these relationships fail, we experience profound disappointment, as well as grieve the physical loss of someone important in our lives.
Even when we know we made the right choice in leaving the relatonship it still causes pain and depression.
There is a good book out, Understanding Depression By Patricia Ainsworth I hope you have a counselor or therapist. You would benefit from therapy. Know we are here and keep talking to us.
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