Welcome to HealingWell. There are many other things to put together with medication to help you get past the depression.
Have you tried therapy, group therapy, or CBT? I hope you have a Psychiatrist prescribing your meds. I understand you fear of coming off of a med and the side effects. That is a very legitimate fear.
Exercise. take a walk, play a game, or ride a bike. The point is to exercise because when you do, your body will release endorphins, which contribute to feeling good.
Think positive thoughts, leaving no room for failure that you “just can’t do this.” You can beat this illness by putting one foot in front of the other. We are here ti help you so take out hands and let us help your through.