Wake up in the morning get my son ready for school and go back to bed. I feel tired and in a fog. I have headaches and just feel empty. I feel like every movement I make is like in slow motion like I am floating. I just catch myself staring at things and just feeling numb. I feel lifeless and can't seem to do the simplest of tasks. I do seem to get on the computer but to me I feel like that is all I can do b/c that doesn't involve moving around, but while on the computer I have about 1000 emails but it overwhelms me to even try to start deleting them. I feel lonely even though I have a loving husband and son. I feel frustrated b/c I want to be happy and be able to do things. I used to work at home but now I just can't seem to do it. I sell Ebay but can't seem to be motivated to do what needs to be done. I just want to scream and have everything negative come out in that scream so I can go on with my life again. I think about all the people who really have severe problems and they don't have a way out like one's with cancer and are dying. I say to myself I have nothing to complain about I have a good life and my family is healthy. Then I say WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME SNAP OUT OF IT!! Then I go back to being the same even though I want to so badly break out of this craziness. I am so so tired of going on different meds to try to help me and liven me up. I am on them a few months and then boom I start feeling awful again. WHAT'S UP WITH THAT? I am on one called Effexor XR right now and I might as well be on nothing as you can see from the post. At first they seemed to work and then I was tired all the time so I increased them that didn't do anything. Now I want to get off them and try something else but the side effects are terrible and I am scared to try. The brain Zaps people describe are the worse and I don't want to be anymore down then I am now. I know I need meds b/c when I try to get off I go right downhill again. Fall and Winter are the worse b/c I have SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). Thank you for reading I just needed to vent and I know you all know what I am going thru. Any hints on what you do to lift yourself up when you just feel like doing nothing?
Welcome to HealingWell. There are many other things to put together with medication to help you get past the depression.
Have you tried therapy, group therapy, or CBT? I hope you have a Psychiatrist prescribing your meds. I understand you fear of coming off of a med and the side effects. That is a very legitimate fear.
Exercise. take a walk, play a game, or ride a bike. The point is to exercise because when you do, your body will release endorphins, which contribute to feeling good.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
Kudos to you for getting of the Effexor with out to much trouble.
I hope the Prozac works for you. Karen is so right, we are here for you.
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*