You're life sounds similar to mine. Especially wanting to throw the meds out. I'm on over 100 pills a day, and I get confused about why half of them are even there. It makes me very hard to deal with when a doc wants to put me on a new med lol.
I also find there is a massive communtication problem with my clinics. I have a Cystic Fibrosis team, a neurologist, and psychiatrist, 3 physio therapists (although I used to have 5!!) all on my case. None of them can communicate, and far to often different people give very contradicting advice.
Hospitals can be vey confusing places, you are definately not alone in thinking that, and definately not crazy! One way I've found to sligthly overcome the communication problems, is for all you're doctors to agree to send you letters saying what's been discussed in clinic. That way you can keep everyone else who looks afer you, up-to-date.
Hope things get easier soon,
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Diagnosed with: Cystic Fibrosis, Asthma, ABPA, Clinical Depression, Mild Liver Cirrohsis, Mild Osteopenia, Erythema Nodosum. Waiting for final diagnosis on Muscular Dystrophy type symptoms.
Medication: Creon 10,000, Flucloxacillin, Vitamins A,D+E, Serevent, Salbutamol, Paracetamol, Ondansetron, Nefopam, Ursodeoxycholic Acid, Saline neb/PEP system, Mirtazapine,slow-sodium, Skandishake and Fresubin.
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