Thank you all so much for all the kind reply's! I really needed that. When I woke up this morning the bad feeling was still present, but when I read your reactions I cheered up a bit.
What I think is really funny is that I said there were only 3 people that would start a conversation with me. Well, today other people started talking to me as well, including one who I haven't spoken with for years
. Funny how things always seem to work out like that.
I guess I just have to focus on other things. Things will happen once I am ready for it, and as long as I will be a seeker I can never be a finder. And I think you are right Aurora, I tend to put others before me. Which I don't consider a bad thing, but it goes so far that when I suspect a problem I will feel bad, and want to fix it, even when there is no proof whatsoever that something is wrong. They will come looking for me if there really is a problem, I think.
CD, I hope you are feeling better today. If helping others make you feel better, you should feel a little better now, because you helped me
. I don't think it will sound very truthful when I say it, but nonetheless, I do believe that inside beauty like you have is so much better than outside beauty. Because outside beauty will fade away and leave you with none, while inside beauty will always remain.
And Li, you are so absolutely right about
the black and white. I never thought about
that, but know I realize that I do tend to see everything in either black or white, nothing in between. Thank you so much for pointing that out!
I feel like reborn again
Acceptance is the key
Existential depression and InsecurityTry to keep smiling! :)