i tryed drinking myself to death after the man i was in love with and was supposed to marry baet me up and then told me that he wasn't in love with me right now but in a way i think it was a good thing i did. they sent me to a mental health hospital where i was put back on my zoloft for my anxiety and depression. i want to thank all the ppl that replied to my previous posts for your efforts to help me. i spent a week in that hospital about
3 weeks ago. i was sent home with a new lease on life. when i returned the man i was engaged to tryed to tell me that he loved me but i knew it wasn't true in a way i always knew that. i feel stronger now than i ever have before. for the first time in my life i am focusing on me and only me. no more trying to fix everyone else's life and ignoring my own. i never allowed myself to grieve my daughter because there was no one there to hold me up. i was too busy holding up my ex and my family. i am now taking that time for myself. i left my ex. telling him only that when he left me alone in that emergency room i found myself again and that i knew now that he wasn't strong enough to be there for me. so i wasn't going to continue our relationship. i left him standing in our living room packed my things and moved out. i feel amazing now. my meds leveled out and my life feels like it is falling back together instead of falling apart. for the first time in my life i am strong enough to hold myself up, and my family is there for the moments in which i am weak. thank you all for all the support. i will be posting again soon.
i will leave you now with one of my new found favorite quotes
"sometimes you must fall into weakness before you can find your greatest strength"