I should be happy... right?

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   Posted 10/17/2008 3:07 AM (GMT -6)   
In March my stepkids moved in with my husband and I. They were completly out of control and because of that they were kicked out of their mother's house. For months they made my life a living hell. They instigated fights between their father and I to the point that their father hit me in four different fights.
Finally after months of abuse from both my husband and kids things got better. One child was put on probation after attacking me and my husband quit blaming me... I should be happy right?
Then this month my husband came home to tell me he had been laid off of work. The next morning the landlady gave us an aviction notice. Followed by my break making grinding noises. My husband was refused unemployment and I was written up at work for something I told a friend in private and someone else overheard.
I had to get rid off my dogs, who are like my children, because we can't find a place that will let us have dogs. (This is killing me. I love my dogs) We can't afford the bills or food or gas.
But then this morning my husbands old work calls, just as a woman walks out of my house with my dog, telling him to come back to work..... I should be happy right?
All I want to do is cry. I've been suicidal in the past and all I seem to think about is the              sitting on my bedside table. It's been there for two months and my husband doesn't notice.
No one notices anything. I scream and I scream and no one hears me. I cry and I cry and no one notices. I'm called a ***** and crabby and no one cares that I'm fighting for my rights. They just keep running over the top of me.
I know I need help, medical help, but once again it's not happening. There's no time or money for me to be depressed. My time belongs to my job and my husband's kids. I have to take my step daughter to therapy tomorrow because she told the school she wanted to kill her self to get out of trouble. She's not depressed, she's admitted it. It's all about the attention. Meanwhile I sit by feeling alone in a room full of people crying and dreaming about death.
I can't even sleep anymore. I work nights and by the time I get home and take care of crap for my ungreatful husband and stepkids, there's not much time to sleep before the demons get home. Then no matter what! If their dad's not home they are going to wake me. Like today I got 3 hours sleep then the skids came home walked in the door and screamed at the top of their lungs, "I'm home! Did you not hear me knock on the door? How dare you not open the door!" I was in the bed with ear plugs in and they both have keys. Not to mention the kids are 11 and 12.
And life goes on

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 10/17/2008 4:56:35 AM (GMT-6)

Pamela Neckpain
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Date Joined May 2008
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   Posted 10/17/2008 3:54 AM (GMT -6)   
Oh Sky,
I've had Depression ALL my life. It happens. It doesn't even have to have a reason.
I've been fighting it real hard the past couple of months.
This is a good place where you can discuss things. However, the moderator might
edit your post. If this is done, please know that it's just their rules. Just keep writing
and rewording.
It sounds to me like you're on dangerous ground ~ so dangerous that me with all
my experience with Depression stand wordless.
You would be opening up to some life changes if you tell a doctor or clinic the story
that you told us. They would want you to go and stay with them awhile. They call
our place "The Garden Pavillion" .... Sweet. I don't know if you have to pay the bills
if they admit you.
But ... from the tone of your post, the bills don't even seem to matter. It's your
life we're talking about here.
Please do respond.
I think I'll hang out on this board for awhile. I was on another board and they were
really good at helping each other along, Maybe this one is too.

Post Edited (Pamela Neckpain) : 10/17/2008 2:58:31 AM (GMT-6)

Pamela Neckpain
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Date Joined May 2008
Total Posts : 1821
   Posted 10/17/2008 4:03 AM (GMT -6)   
I was sitting at the computer and i almost fell asleep and it seemed like some one
said NEVADA. Weird. I'm not psychotic. But I am psychic.
That's never happened before. Sky ...
Do you live in Nevada?

getting by
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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 10/17/2008 6:03 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Sky,

I am sorry but I had to take a couple of words out of your post. We aren't suppose to talk about anything that remotely describes suicide. But sweetie, I do feel your pain.

One thing I must say, is your husband should have NEVER hit you. Not for any reason. So I would watch that. Don't let it happen again without letting him know that you are not going to live with it. Maybe say that at a time when he is cooled down though.

These children are very manipulative, you shouldn't have to put up with this. They sound like they are at that age too. I put up with taking my teenage nephew in once, years ago, but in just the short time he was there, he played the suicide game, had the school convinced that I was cruel by maki;ng him do homework and he tried to break my husband (at that time) and I up. Obviously I sent him back home.

My main concern right now, is him hitting you. Please don't take that, it is a form of abuse and you do not deserve this.

Let us know what is going on.

And oh yes, welcome to the forum.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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   Posted 10/17/2008 8:39 AM (GMT -6)   

Good Morning Sky,

Whoa there, your husband hit you 4 times and his kids abuse you too.  You never have to be abused.  It is against the law and it puts you in a dangeous situation. Most abusers will escalate as long as the partner allows the abuse to happen.

There are shelters for women and most of them work with you and help you get back on your feet.  You also need counseling right away.  Call your local community service or try one of these numbers. Also the next time he touches you, call 911.  Let the police take care of him and social services take care of the kids. It does not sound to me like there is anything in your home that is good for you.

Some crisis numbers for you:

NDMDA Depression Hotline | Support Group. 800-826-3632

Domestic  Violence | English & Spanish 800-992-2600

National Domestic Violence Hotline 800-799-SAFE


Here is a support group called Healing Wounds that you may find helpful members with ideas for you. http://s14.invisionfree.com/Healing_Wounds/index.php?act=idx
Take care of you and keep talking to us.



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Post Edited (stkitt) : 10/17/2008 7:48:31 AM (GMT-6)

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