So where to begin.
I'm J. I'm a guy originally from Costa Rica. I moved to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina during the fall of 2005. Winter of 2006, I met a girl at my school named Logan. We started talking and everything, nothing major. Once we summer came, we continued to talk on myspace and everything. So summer passed, and when school started Logan was in 2 of my classes. We started talking alot more and began to get really close. We eventually became bestfriends. We hung out at school alot, eventually we'd go to the mall and other places. We started going to shows at the House of Blues together too. Anyways, we began to get really, really close. By spring we were unbreakable. Summer was getting nearer and nearer and the work permit I was on, along with my parents and sister (J1 Visa) expired at the end of June, so you could say I literally had my days counted. On the night of my moms birthday my friend Hunter and me lied and spent the night at his girlfriends house, where Logan was spending the night too. So that night, Logan came up to me and told me how much she was gonna miss me and I told her how much I loved her and yea... Later that night, Hunter and me started talking about
how far he'd gone with his girlfriend and how much more he was beginning to like her. And then he told me that I should kiss Logan. How it was obvious that she'd like me for a while and that it was about
time we dated. I told him, yea, he was right. So that night, we watched a movie, I went for the kiss, by the morning we were dating.
We were together for just the first 3 weeks of summer. I left for Costa Rica to get my visa renewed to the H1 not the J1. And that we were gonna stay, but were gonna move to Bluffton, South Carolina; 3 hours south from Myrtle Beach. Once I returned, I was only with Logan for a couple of hours. I moved down.
I know she's my one and only love. I've been in love with her for a while now. But it's not fair. I get to see her twice a month if Im lucky. I miss her like hell. She means the world to me, but I'm still not able to keep her.
I've been depressed for a good 3 months now. Nothing can get me out of it. I'm numb. School sucks, I have no friends like I did at my old school. I miss every one. My relationship with Logan is perfect, despite the fact that we see each other so little. The time were together is magical. But once it's time to leave, that's when things get bad. I manage told hold the tears off until I'm safe within the comfort of my room. That's when it all sets off. I bawl my eyes off all night (yea...) I dont know what to do anymore. I've been relying on God's care all my life, it feels like he's forsaken me, religion just doesn't seem to bring any comfort. It doesn't fill the hole.
So please, if you have some advice, it would be GREATLY appreciated.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 10/22/2008 10:19:44 PM (GMT-6)