After reading your post, I honestly could not relate to you more! We're around the same age and I feel the same things you do!
I understand when you say you try to lead a normal life but things are getting worse. I'll give you some advice that a great person gave me (since I feel we have similar situations)...
Try not to look at everything as being the worst. Whether they are getting worse or not, there's always a brighter side.
It's hard to feel like you fit in anywhere in a huge world. But just remember, please remember, that you are indeed an important person who deserves respect and a good life. There is nothing wrong with you. I think some of your thoughts are normal.
I'm also struggling with bulimia, but trying very hard to get over it. You're a beautiful person and whatever your reasons for this physical pain should not be feeling bad about
I honestly cannot believe how much I'm relating to you...when I read your post it was like something I would write. about
the pain, eating, speech, anxiety and panic, seeing something as normal as a car of people and thinking the worst situation possible with no explanation why you think it.
Please do not be so hard on yourself. We cannot be perfect people. You are fine the way you are and in time these thoughts will hopefully go away.
I can tell you this though....the absolute best advice I can give you is counseling. I felt so lost and lonely and when I put my trust in a counselor I had someone who liked me and cared about
me that I could depend on. And we're all here for you
-Daily Migraine Headaches-
"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars."