I guess it is unfortunate that I won't see a doctor. Recently, I have been through a great deal of changes. I don't want to get negative, but I was in a abusive relationship that caused me to lose my two children. The state felt that since I have a history of depression, lupus, and was a foster child. Apparently that makes me lack parenting skills. I sought help at the local counseling center...they called CPS on my family due to concerns of my ex...My children are now up for adoption due at the end of November....During the year that I fought for my children, I was forced to see counselors, doctors ect....who then were required to report to the CPS...While I understand that this was not their choice, but a requirement. Well I have developed a great distaste for anything to do with them. Whatever was reported was twisted by the perception of the caseworker, who did not feel I had enough resources to raise two children. They never claimed I was abusive or anything just that i was "not the best option" for my children. My ex signed his rights off early in the game, so that made me a single mother in very real way. Plus the additional stuff added to my health. I am not sure if this is too much negative talk so feel free to edit what you must. Anyways, I lost, and I have found that I am angry, depressed, and so much more....This has gone on for a while, I get some crazy thoughts but I often remind myself of what is right ect...it becomes harder everyday.
With God all things are Possible.
Dx: Lupus (SLE)2002, Sjogren's Sydrome 2002, GERD 1995, Depression 1995, Sleep Apnea 2006, IBS 2000, Migraines 2001, Anemia 2002, Seizures in 1995 (unknown causes). Meds: Cymbalta 60 mgs, Plaquinil 200mg once daily, Nexium 40 mgs, Prednisone 5mg