Take steps towards learning to speak your mind and talk about
how you feel. I dont know about
your self harm, but I can tell you that its not worth it and thats a step you need to take. You have to discipline yourself in a way.
We are all here for you. Talk it out. Vent all you need to, its important that you dont bottle stuff up.... and I know we will all help you as much as we can. Take advantage of that counselor. Without thinking try to say a few things that you need to get out. She will help you. holding back isnt the way to go.... I know that for sure... Talking is a great thing.
As for your son, I cant imagine having to go through that. I could have my hair pulled out. You should send him to a special school. I had a friend who was like you son...he was about
13 at the time when his dad decided he couldnt put up with it and needed to do something with him. He sent him to some place in Kentucky. They were very strict and had to work and everything... when he came back he was better. more respectful and less "in trouble". Im sure there are different things. And I dont know about
anything like that financially, but I would consider looking into it. Maybe ask the judge to see what he can do with him. He may have suggests?
Anyways, I dont know, thats just what I know, but I cant blame you for feeling the way you do. Going to school is hard enough, but having your kid act like that is extremely upsetting and stressful, Im sure.
I hope you will continue to come here, we encourage venting, its good for ya! But, we are here for you when you need us... take care
Lyrica and Paxil (both working quite well might I add!)
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."