My dad thinks that the only reason I come on here is to give myself something to do. He is sure that the second I come off the site I will be all sad and depressed again, or will be after I have been off it for 15 mins. I think he is depressed himself but he won't admit it, he keeps saying "I am fine if you and your sister are fine" but I am not fine, thats the problem. Not only have I got to focus myself to get me back on track, but I am also worrying about him. I don't know what it is but it seems to me as if my dad only wants me to get help when he is there beside me. If he has other jobs to do around the house, I get told to "Find something to get you motivated" or "Fine, go on the computer again!" Like before, we had an argument and when I had calmed down, I tried to give him a hug back and say sorry. He gave me a hug back and carried on what he was doing. Then about 1 hour ago he said to me "It's not as simple as just giving someone a hug and saying sorry if you have really hurt the feelings of someone close to you!" and when I asked him what else I could have done to show him how sorry I was, I got the reply "That's not the point!" and then silence. What can I do as I can't cope worring about him as well as the 6 years of grief, emotions and loss that I have carried on my shoulders all this time... PLUS MORE!!! I really can't cope like this much longer!!! I really need help!!!