I am sure that Li is right and that the doctor will help you sort things out. I know that it is hard, especially with the hernia, maybe there are some exercises that you can do for that.
Try to look at the positives in your life, and I do agree with Li, nine children is a lot. I don't know how you did it but I bet that you are a good mom.
Take care, have a great day
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