It isn't wrong, stupid, or whatever to talk about your problems. In fact, I am proud of you for doing so. Talking about what is bothering you can be such a great help, for you because of the relief you get from telling and venting, and you won't get much help from others when they don't see that you are having problems. For years I was waiting for that person to show up and get me out, but of no use. When I finally had the guts to tell about my depression, I came to know that most of the people around me though I was an upbeat person, rather than hopeless. Talking also got me out.
Like Ivy (thanks the help!), I don't live in the States either, so I have no idea what is going on with the social support. But that detail will be spoken of, since there are a lot of people here that do know how it works. But I think it will be good for you if you can visit a counsellor. They can be a great support to you in the hard times.
I really don't know whether I should say this, since it might sound like I don't care, while I do. You may not get the point, which is OK, since this isn't an absolute truth or so, just my thoughts. Let's think of a football match. The fans of the winning team will be happy, the fans of the losing team won't. And the outcome won't affect some. You can't say the football match contains any emotional value, because if it would, everyone would be affected in the same way. If it was a positive match, everyone should be happy. However, they aren't, so it is safe to conclude that happiness comes from within as a reaction to a certain situation. Happiness that comes from within means that there is a person with great influence on it, you. Someone can change the way they react to a certain event. Knowing and believing in this can be a help, since it means you choose your own happiness. It doesn't depend on someone else, something else. No, you already have it in you, you just need events to trigger it. As you can change the way you perceive a situation, it is in fact possible to change every situation into something positive.
I know this might sound plain stupid, too easy, wicked hard, or whatever. Anyway, I thought I'd share it, since it helped me a lot. Just by being aware that positivity is there in every situation, and believing in it, causes me to see a lot more positivity in the world. And as with everything, the more you practise, the better you get at it.
All the best Maria, and please take care!!
Acceptance is the key
Existential depression and Insecurity
Try to keep smiling! :)