I think its great that you have the drive and motivation to try and use self-help because IMO its one of the best techniques out there since you are the expert on how you feel.
This is a website Kitt posts regularly:
(You might have to copy and paste it as I dont seem to be able to make the link active! lol) Its a fantastic website and it is a self-help programme which I have followed and it has done wonders for me. Keep trying to get hold of the doctor though... its important that they know where you are in your treatment
Edited to add:
There is also:
Which is run by the same people but slightly different.
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