Had a tough day yesterday... I feel like I went 2 steps back, and now I have to catch up.
The ex wanted some stuff, like the TV, and I haven't been in contact with her for two weeks, because she just triggers
a lot of stress and anxiety. She kept on calling and was very abusive on the phone. She came to the house and my mom just put the stuff on
the curb, as I really did not want to see her. I told my mom that I was haunted by 5 years worth of memories and I just did not want to add even a day or an hour to those memories. Just imagine having film rolling in your head, and each time I have to press stop';, and think of something else. This is a daily struggle for me. Imagine 5 years worth of film! and I can't add to it any more. My sister and mom have asked me if I wanted to change my phone number, as well as maybe file a temporary restraining order. She was the one who left me, and it took me a long while to leave her alone, and now that I'm trying to move on and try to live, she starts bothering me again!
I just want to live my life, without her in it. She also said she wanted to see one of our dogs, but I did not let her because I don't want my dogs to see their "mom" and then not know when they'll see her again.
Any advice? Hopefully today will be a better day.