So, I will give this a try, because I think we have a lot in common.
Listen, you are lucky, yea, I said lucky. Why? Because you arent in a horrible stage of depression yet. If you feel like it is a problem for you now, which it seems you do, then you need to do something about
it NOW. Do NOT wait like its something you can throw under your bed for a while. Theres nothing wrong with asking for some guidance, but our guidance seems to be pointing you in the direction of someone you can talk to. You HAVE to learn to talk to other people and not be uncomfortable. You cant get through it without talking.
Okay, you may think Im being hard on you....but trust me. And heres why you should. Im 17. A Senior in HS. And a former sufferer of depression, anxiety, and panic. (and a muscle disorder) I was a cutter and I almost ODed once. I stayed quiet for a long time, too long. I was a listener and advice giver myself. I had NEVER had to talk to someone about
my problems, because I had never had any. Now, this all started a year and a half ago and Im just now getting better. And I have to take medication for it. So, my advice to you is to TALK to SOMEONE, anyone.
I always wanted to and I never could. I just couldnt. But, then I was forced to and I was glad I did. It helped. And now I have a whole support team that I can go to. I dont feel uncomfortable as much anymore because its just a part of life and it happens to ALOT of people. You are no less of a person for feeling depressed or anything. So, never think that.
As for the sleep. There is alot you can try. You can try a warm drink, stretches, warm bath, muscle relaxation, talk to you doctor. I could never talk to my parents, so they still dont know about
any of it except just a little anxiety. But, it was 500x as bad as that. The worst thing ever. So, dont wait, go talk to someone. I talked to my school counselor. Over a year later, Im still nervous and scared of talking to her! lol But, I do it because its whats best. I had sleep problems but one of my medications helped with it so... But, different things help different people. You just have to experiment.
Just, please, talk to someone about
it. Dont wait just because you feel uncomfortable, it isnt worth it if it gets worse. And it may not, dont think your automatically going to end up like me! Yours could go away by itself! But, why take that chance when you have the chance to do something about
it now... think about
it. Because I would never EVER want another person to have to go through what I went through....
Good luck. Keep us posted. We care about
you and we will do everything we can to help you, I know I will! I've been there and I know how it is. So, if you ever need to talk, my email and everything is on my profile I believe, feel free anytime! Take Care
Lyrica and Paxil (both working quite well might I add!)
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."