Thank you all so much for your reply's! Today is a complete new day, and I feel refreshed again. I guess yesterday night was just a reminder to me that I need to continue working on my mental health
. And a reminder that I need to change the way things are going right now, because they aren't going as they could be. This evening I will have a chat with my parent's, to let them know.
When laying in bed last night I realized I do want to be a jungle doctor. That is something worth fighting for. My dad is in fact an expert on motivation, so maybe he has some ideas.
I can even laugh now at my post from yesterday
. What I wrote was exactly how I felt, but I know I can change my mood if I want to. I just didn't want to do it last night. So that is something to remember, as it won't end up very good.
And no to answer some of your question rather than to talk about
me all the time. Vacation will begin 4 weeks from now, and will be 2 weeks long. And about
disappointing myself, that ain't a very good idea in my case, as thinking of all the things I did wrong up to this date is quite enough to make me feel bad, more won't make it worse. It is better not to think of it.
And Aurora, my goals have changed a bit. But that is normal. There are people which I can talk to, and I will. My roommate isn't exactly the type for this kind of conversations, but we will see.
And Li, that is some very good advice you gave. Maybe that is the way to go, it is worth trying! But even when you are alone, it won't be bad as long as you don't think its bad. Now that is something to be aware of in those situations.
Ow, and never worry whether your advice is good or bad, at those moments nothing can make it worse, and just a sign of life is enough to make me feel better.
Take care all, and no worries 'bout me, as I will probably be well until next month or so
Acceptance is the key
The World is but a reflection. Smile, and it will smile back.Try to keep smiling! :)