I've never felt so depressed in my whole life than I have these past few weeks.
I'm so miserable I can't even stand it. I'm not doing very well in school, I don't feel that comfortable with my new therapist. My friend dropped out of school without telling me and now shes ignoring me. my parents are always giving me grief. I have bad health but I dont have money to go to the doctors. I have no money at all. I work, but i dont have paychecks because I own fees. So i work for nothing. i also have anxiety so I feel like breaking down and crying and hiding everytime I go into my work.
My boyfriend and I don't talk anymore now, and it still kills me that he won't even look my way anymore. I'm eating everything and gaining a bunch of weight. I have no money for school or anything.
I had a panic attack in my therapists office a few weeks ago. If I cant even trust my therapist, who can I trust? No one.
I'm scared for myself. I can't handle this anymore. No one seems to care. I'm always there for people. I'm always there to answer those 2am phone calls, or voluntarily inconvenience myself so that no one else has to be inconvenienced with anything.
I don't even know what to do anymore.
"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars."