I am so glad that you picked HealingWell as a place to come for communication. Right now it is kind of slow with everybody heading for their Thanksgiving destinations, but, I am sure that you will eventually see how kind and compassionate everybody on the forum is. So be patient with us until the holiday is over. I am sure there will be a lot more posts on this thread.
I understand how difficult it is to come to terms with the loss of a loved one. Somebody that is so dear to you. I lost my nephew to suicide this past December and I still haven't recovered from it. It was such a sudden death, I don't know if it has even really sunk in yet. I know that things are becomming more difficult for me as of late. But I wonder if it is also the holidays that is setting me off. I am not super depressed, but just not right. A little more on edge and kind of off kilter. It is hard to explain. I just wish that I could turn back time and change everything, but I can't.
I also can understand how hard it is to get into counseling. I wish it wasn't that way. But make an appointment anyway if they will let you, even if it is some time off to when you can see somebody. In the meantime, keep posting here. We are all here for you.
I know that sometimes depression can cause physical ailments. But I have fibromyalgia and I have a lot of pain and fatigue. That is something that you might want to talk to your doctor about
. It is long and grueling trying to get a diagnosis, because they have to rule everything out before they can say it is fibro. There are no tests to determine fibromyalgia other than a tenderpoint check and ruling everything else out. So you might want to check into that.
I can understand that you don't want to go on medication, but if your depression is a chemical imbalance, you might need to. But it could very well be situational with losing your father and all. It is still hard to deal with it without some type of assistance. So don't rule that out, you might find that it helps you.
You are so welcome to continue posting here. We will be here for you. We can all use a friend during these difficult times. And here is a good place to find one. I have made some pretty good friends here and I will never forget them.
I hope that you have a lovely day. And if I don't hear from you before, have a wonderful Thanksgiving.
Luv and hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies