Ill start with when i first started being depressed... i quit for myself. After 2 months I ended up moving a couple hours away from my friends, into a very mormon populated area with my family(They cram religion down my throat everyday and tell me its the only way to be happy...) I slowly started becoming depressed again... over the 4 months of my living here, ive become even more depressed then when i was addicted... I feel that i cant go on anymore. I cry myself to sleep alot. I love a girl and she loves me, but everytime i try to get close to her i always back out from being too depressed and not able to get the motivation and comitment to her, shes moved on and its making me feel even worse about myself. Im trying to find another girl, but i end up saying stupid stuff, and i keep thinking that im not good enough, not goodlooking enough, not worth their time. I cant get along with anyone, I cant make any new friends, I cant be myself. Ive tried therapy. I dont know about depression medication, does it really work well? Im 18, and i want to live my life, but I dont even have the courage to do it. Im worried that if i do everyone around me will fall apart too, and i cant put that on their shoulders. So i sit here, everyday, waiting until i can just end this. Help me please...
Edit: Koby, I am sorry but I had to edit you post per HW rules.
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Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 12/2/2008 2:55:31 PM (GMT-7)