Oh, there is one other thing I forgot to mention. Two years ago, the father of my children stabbed me 16 times. The dr said I was not supposed to come out of the hospital, but I left the next morning. I was stabbed 6 times in my left arm, 4times in my head, 2 times in my spine, 2 times in my left shoulder, 2 times in my chest. I have alot of emotional problems stemming from that, as well as my son. He seen it happen. He goes to counselilng also, but my little boy is gone forever. He literally changed overnight when he saw the stabbing, when he saw the marks on my body. He was 3 at the time. Of course, I still have the marks, but they have healed and don't look near as grotesque as it did when it happened. It is something no child should ever see. So, with everything I'm dealing with in my last post and this also, sometimes, I just feel so down and depressed. I don't know what to do. I've done everything I can for my son, yet the anger persists.