I am sorry that your mom and you aren't quite getting along with each other. But please try to see this from a different, positive angle as well. Because there are two things you can do. Change the behaviour
of your mom, or change your behaviour
. This concept applies to everything in life that will ever bother you. You can try to change that situation, or change yourself. Just as there are two ways to achieve total happiness, either by having everything you will ever want and need in the outside world, or having everything from within. The first is quite hard to achieve (impossible), just as the latter. But change within is doable, so maybe you can focus on that.
Because right now you are blaming your mother to some extend for your problems. In the end, what matters is our own happiness. And we can either say others are responsible for that, or we can take things in our own hands. In fact, you, and only you, are responsible for how you feel. So we can keep on worrying, blaming others, keep saying that little something will bring us happiness, and keep on feeling bad. While we can also stand up and say, I don't want any more negativity in my life, and begin a long quest to find it. Who am I to judge and say one of them is better than the other, since I can't. But I can tell you that inner change can provide you with much more happiness than outer change, and happiness that will last.
There is a wonderful quote I would love to share with you: "How can there be peace in the world if you don't have peace with yourself?". This quote works both way, I could also say "How can you have peace with yourself if you can't have peace with the world?". Also, it demonstrates just how social happiness in fact is
. People tend to say that someone seeking his or her happiness is selfish, whilst a happy person is proven to be more tolerable, socially involved etc. And also important, happiness is contagious, it will spread to others.
I hope I didn't hurt you in your feelings by saying all the stuff I've said above. I just want you to be happy! So even when you are feeling bad because of what I wrote, try to smile and laugh at me for being such an idiot or anything that will make you feel better.
Have a wonderful day Kythe!