this is my first time doing anything like this. So please be kind.
I will give a bit of background...
i am 24 and I have a wonderful man in my life. We are getting married next year. He provides for me, cares and loves me just the I am. He is so sweet and loving and honest, and I could not ask for a better man.
I have a history of cronic depression in my family as well as in myself. My uncle killed himself in 2004, it hit me very hard. But I slowly was getting over it. And then i found myselfextremely depressed, and I went to my doctor to get help as i didn't want to end up like my uncle. I got better and have been doing very well until recently.
I have no reason to feel sad or upset. I just can't seem to control my emotions or anything. I have a hard time getting out of bed. I feel so lonely even though I have a wonderful supportive family. I feel so guilty for feeling this way when I don't have anything to be sad over. i also have cronic daily migraines. There is not one day I wake up without pain. I am in pain all day and all night. I have no tumors or anything. I have been on so many different kinds of drugs and group therapy. Nothing has worked. I feel exausted all the time. It takes so much out of me to just even cook dinner for my fiance. The littleest things will set me off either crying or me getting upset or mad. I don't want to yell, or be upset, or get mad, or be condensending, or talk down to him. It just happens, then I feel sooooo horrible I start bawling and apologize. i feel that no matter who I want to talk to they will say I have no reason to feel this way. And it's true. But i also don't want to feel like I am weak by going back on antidepressiants.
wow well that should be lots for now
thank you for reading