First of all, welcome to healingwell. I am glad that you have become a member. You will find that everybody here is kind and compassionate and it does help to write things down.
I am sorry that you are so down today. I hope that you start to feel better soon.
Do you exercise? Walking is good too. It takes your mind off of things and in the meantime you are losing weight. So I would recommend trying that at first and then maybe get into some kind of exercise plan.
Just don't act upon your thoughts. I know that you want to live and you will have a good life. This is a hard time of year right now and everybody seems to be depressed, so join the crowd. But we try to talk to eachother and bring ourselves above the depression cycle. You can do that too. Just know that all of us care.
I see that you take xanax, so you must have a doctor. Let them know that you are feeling bad. Maybe he can do something to help you feel better, like adjust your medications.
Please keep posting, we are here for you.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies