Welcome to HealingWell and the Depression Forum.
I know you said you are on meds for antianxiety and you mentioned you took a "nice" dose of Xanax this morning. I hope it was within the range your physician ordered.
Looks like you have had a rough time and I feel you would do well to see a therapist and please do tell the whole truth about your feelings. Feeling that life is worthless is putting you in the danger zone from the words you posted.
There is always good in the world. This may be your chance to make a fresh start. You are a very worthy person. I am sorry you got hit by a identity theft too. That has to make you feel very vunerable.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You are worth much more.
Yesterday is gone forever, tomorrow is not yet here and Today is really all we ever have. We may have the memories of yesterday but it is over and so we do not need to continue to live in it. Well tomorrow is not here so it might be nice to set goals for tomorrow, or dream of what we would like it to be, but again it is not here yet so we can not live in it until it gets here. So we can only live in the here and now of Today. What a wonderful gift.
Please call 911 if you feel you may harm yourself.
Take care and keep talking to us.