Really, really sad right now.

No offense to anyone, especially the forum moderators because you guys are great, but I really don't know why I come on here anymore. I guess it's ok if people read this or don't, respond to it or don't, but i also guess it's ok for me to just vent it out here.

I'm not quite sure what to do anymore. I know I've mentioned this before, but I can't understand the relationship I have with my counselor. It's been going great most of the time, but lately I feel that they just don't care about me anymore. I feel rushed in appointments and I feel more and more uncomfortable to speak my mind.

 I feel like i'm a burden on them and I feel like they're obligated to care about me, even though they really don't.

I'm not sure if I'm going to continue going back, as much as that hurts for me to say because I truly love and admire them but I just feel that there's nothing here. It's the worst feeling in the world to not feel loved. My family/friends don't support me...now I'm sensing that my therapist doesn't anymore either. So I'm alone now.

I just wish I could feel some kind of real emotion or feel like I can move on with my life and put this behind but its too important for me not to.

 

Hi BTE,

I am sorry that you are feeling that way that you do. My question to you is do you love yourself? That is all that really matters in the whole world. If you love yourself, you don't worry about what other people feel about you. But I am sure that you ARE LOVED. It just probably doesn't feel like it right now.

I honestly feel like you should mention how you feel to your counselor. I really think that they would talk to you about how you feel and that you would realize you are loved.

This is no time to isolate yourself. So please don't give up on your counselor. Get all this out in the open. I really think that you would feel a lot better if you did.

I hope that you don't give up on us. We are here for you and always will be.

Take care and think about what I said. You also need to realize that there are a lot of people in this world that don't show emotion. That could be going on with your family. Maybe they just assume that you know how they feel. Or maybe they just aren't emotional or even happy. And you could be picking up on that. Which means that if you feel the need, you might want to surround yourself with different people. I can tell that you are feeling alone and I must touch on learning to love yourself again. Once you have that, you don't need anything else.

I hope that you become happy. You deserve to be.

Hugs, Karen