While I have decided divorce is the right thing to do right now, it is not final by any means. I think I've been enabling her way too much and letting her get away with whatever she wanted to do (even her own family cannot believe that I am still with her and they actually fully support me in this). I really believe this decision needed to be made not only for her (I'm hoping it will push her to seek therapy that she was referred to but hasn't gone to yet). In addition, I really have to think about my 2 kids. They are really feeling the effects of what is going on. With my ever developing anxiety disorder, I'm starting to get into a position where I won't be the optimal parent that I want to be. Thus, the divorce decision has actually let my mind settle down and focus on the task at hand. I told my wife I would still be there for her no matter what and that I will always love her. I will continue to take her to the doctor (we went on Wednesday) if needed and take care of the kids so she can concentrate on healing herself.
We are actually still living in the same house (economy issues) but just won't have the intimate contact that we don't actually have anymore anyways (hhmm, nothing really changed). I think it's just the word "divorce" that making her realize that she really needs to seek the consistent help that she needs.
Thus, I am not running away from this at all. We still have the same living arrangement and I am still going to be here for her (although, she still pushes me away when I want to help). I think the divorce decision is allowing me to maintain a logical frame of mind that is most beneficial for the kids and for myself.
Thank you again for all of your support. I really respect all of your opinions and will consider to seek all of your wise guidance. I will continue to work on keeping our marriage together, although it will need to wait until she has taken care of herself. Thanks again and God Bless.