It’s my first post so be nice! J
My wife and I have been married for 11 years and our marriage is great most of the time. We have a boy(5) and a girl(7) and we love them infinitely of course. I am a successful 39 year old rocket and software engineer with an anger problem…at least I am beginning to think I am having an anger problem. Years ago..BK (Before kids) I stayed home from work one day to finish staining some cabinetry that my wife and I bought. I had been work on this stiff for a few days and it was supposed to have been finished by this time so I was already a little iterated. Anyway, I was in the back yard applying the stain and things were just not working out. My anger rose so quickly and violently it still scares me to think about it all these years later. I picked up the curio cabinet and slung it across the yard destroying it in the process. I then proceeded to take my claw hammer and destroy the rest of the furniture and a $650 Echo backpack leaf blower!! I then proceeded into the house, after I thought I had calmed down, and destroyed several hundred $$ worth of hand painted ceramic figurines from Hungary. I then called my wife and told her to come home to stop me form committing suicide!!! Well I got over it and our marriage continued…but I still, every 6 months to a year, go into theses one or two day long temper tantrums over the simplest things. Last October the wife and kids and I were taking a Disney cruise and two days before leaving I explode because my son dropped a two-way radio on the floor and broks it. I then took both of the radios and smashed them on the floor right in front of my kids!!! They were terrified!! I slept in the bed without moving the next two days and we barely made the cruise. Well another episode happened again last night and today. My wife and I have been nit picking each other for a couple of weeks and it got real bad last night. She slept in the other room and this morning when she started getting ready for church I just stayed in my bed. When she and the kids left I punched a hole in my headboard, threw the remote at my $1200 LCD TV and missed, thank God! I took my RayBan sunglasses and destroyed them. Anyway, I have been feeling much better tonight and actually had a good evening with my family, but I obviously have a problem!!! What should I do? Do I need meds? Should I see a doc?