Hello my dear friend and I know where you are coming from. If I cannot sleep due to my depression I get tempted to take more of my med..........and that worries me so I try to work off my mood by posting here.
I did the best ever this year in only letting my feelings get hurt twice.
My issues were with what was happening in North Dakota with my sister with the cancer. I was so angry when she cried on the phone saying no one put up the Christmas Tree or any lights or decorations I think i would have spent Chrsitmas Eve in a cell had I not been 500 miles away. Jail cell or padded cell.
Stay in the moment and know I am here beide you. I know with love and prayers you will be out of the darkness and into the light again soon.
You are simply quite wonderful and beautiful in heart and soul.
Email me anytime. I am right here.