Sadsoul,and Callie T, I to understand where your coming from, I'm always telling my therapist I wish I could go to sleep and just not wake up. But I can't commit suicide though, My first Husband did and I had such a hard time dealing with it I couldn't put my girls through the same. And I have two beautiful grandsons that I've waited half my life for I could not put them through the guessing game. It's so hard to live with having someone close to you who has committed suicide. My H did it in 82 and not a day goes by that some how he comes into my mind. I'm always thinking if.... ,if only ...., and it never leaves. And I do believe in GOD, and I want to go to a better place, I don't think I will see him there. There are so many questions everyone has to deal with, and for the rest of your children' s life, their children' s and so on have the questions and comments why. I've even seen it on form's you have to fill out. My girls mean the world to me and I have the best man I could ever have standing beside me. although I think about
it I could never act on it.
In 2006 I found out I have Crohn's, and over the years I've struggled with depression, and bipolar disorder. Its been hard to deal with everything, and that's when my mind goes to my first husband. Life sucks a lot of the time but I found if you get someone who can help, someone who supports you, and stand beside you no matter what. The thoughts don't leave you just know you could never act on them..... I push myself for my kids, Crohn's has taken so much away from me it drives me crazy . I had to quit my job because of it. So now I 'm fighting the gov for my SS. I just keep pushing on.....
I hope you two really think before you do anything, someone has to pay, I don't mean money, all the questions, they never go away, and they never get answered. And it will follow your kids the rest of their lives......
Dx June 07 Crohn's take asacol 2x3 a day ,lotrel for HBP , omeprezole for stomach , potassium , calcium & Vit D , lomotil for lose stools , tramadol for pain , started humira in Feb 08 on 1 shot a week, vit-B 12 shots , crestor,off crestor,now pravastatin,off humira, pristiq, abilify,
Dx Bipolar May 08