Posted 12/29/2008 7:07 AM (GMT -6)
First I have to make my apologies for not reading your entire story. I have a bad headache, and it is just too much text for me to handle right now. From the bits and pieces I have read it seems you are full of hate and misunderstanding towards others. Well, you certainly have a point there, as mankind is quite a weird form of life.
A few things that strike me is that you say people need to take the initiative towards living a better (read, more loving, compassionate, and joyful) life, instead of the going on battle for money and power. But if you think about it, how can hatred, anger and rage contribute to a more loving world? Isn't that a contradiction? Hate is always negative I believe, as is anger. It will destruct, rather than mend. It will bring war, more hatred, etc. Hatred is contagious. Just as love. Love is the opposite of hatred, and will mend rather than destroy, love is a positive force. And no, I do NOT mean the love for a woman you want to have as a gf, because for man our age (I am 18) that is most of the time based on craving rather than genuine love. True love is having love and care for everything, no matter what it is. You will know your love is true when you can wish the best for your worst enemies. And true love is what we need in this competitive world.
You need to change. Yes, I read that you hate it when people say it to you. Hate it. Hate. Unless you can stop the hating, the world won't become a better place. Rather than resistance on what those others have to say, open your mind for them. You hate the world, you need to change. A pretty logical solution, isn't it? The world is nothing more than what we think of it. It won't judge you, it won't tell you what to do. There is no Right or Wrong, no Good or Bad. It just is. So we can hate the world and feel angry, or love the world and feel happy. We decide.
To make my last point a bit more clear, try to imagine a football game. The winning team and their fans will be happy, the losers will be sad. It isn't the game itself that is the cause of emotion, else everyone would experience the same emotions (like all be happy). No, it is our minds that decide whether to perceive a situation as "happy", "sad", "good", "depressing" etc.
This is good news, as we change our minds. We can change them from hating and rejecting minds to open and loving minds, caring for everything around us.
Beej, please watch your reaction towards my story. Do you feel like I am a stupid not knower for trying to love this wicked world? If so, who is the not knower? The one that live in hatred and sadness, or the one that (is trying to ) live in happiness and joy? You choose.
I can ramble on about this for hours, but that won't be very helpful. I hope this somewhat shed a new light on your state of being, and if not, sorry for writing this.
All the best!