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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 1/4/2009 1:33 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello everyone~
This is my first post to this forum. Here is a little background first. I am a 36 yr old female, married and mom to 2 kids (9 and 6). I have a great family. A supportive husband. I have been off and on anti depressants over the years, mainly because I have felt irritable and cranky for no reason. I have taken Prozac, Lexapro and Zoloft. I think of the 3, I did the best on Lexapro but I did gain quite a bit of weight. I not currently taking anything.
November was a very stressful month. I was sick, kids were sick, husband was in car accident. Thankfully he was not seriously injured, but after having a CAT scan in the ER a brain tumor was found (benign). I did not take the news well at all, even though it was not the worst news one can get. The thought he might need to have surgery and then the thought I could lose him is almost too much to bear.
Since then I have had a hard time dealing with life. On the outside I appear *somewhat* okay. But I am struggling.  This is hard to admit, but I tend to think the worst about everything. I worry about things that are out of my control (dying and leaving my kids motherless, losing a loved one, etc ...).
I have not been feeling all that well the last month or so. The only way I can explain it is I feel like I am getting sick, but nothing ever progresses. I have this dizzy feeling in my head. Not the room spinning dizzy, just an odd fuzzy/dizzy feeling. Some days my body feels achy. My lower back has been bothering me ... very stiff and uncomfortable. I have actually had the back thing for a long time, but lately it is worse. I have been dealing with this ache in my knee/lower leg that comes and goes (since June). I also (geesh the list seems endless) have nausea more than I care to deal with. I have been diagnosed with IBS.
I am terrified to go to the dr. (even though in summer of 2007 I had a sonogram of my abdomen, colonoscopy, endoscopy and blood work, all of which can back fine) I keep thinking they will find something that I won't want to hear. My husband thinks I am suffering from depression, yet I question that. Can others see what I cannot? I don't feel overly sad. I do feel down, but I just thought it was from my not feeling well.
So, I turn to you all for help. I guess I just wanted to run this by others who have been there. Are my symptoms a result of depression? Am I depressed and in denial? Please give me your thoughts.

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Date Joined Jul 2008
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   Posted 1/4/2009 2:30 AM (GMT -6)   
It sounds like you have a lot of worries. Maybe it is the depression come back or anxiety or something. Only a counselor or physician can diagnose, so it might be worth getting checked out. Both depression & anxiety are very treatable. Getting treatment could really help calm things down for you and give you back some energy to face your husband's tumor & all the other struggles you're facing right now.

I do want to encourage you that I have known a few close friends who have had tumors. One had surgery to remove the tumor. One had surgery to remove most of the tumor. One has an inoperable tumor. All of them have tumors that are benign. Medical treatment of tumors is very advanced & typically people go for decades with little to no interruption to their lives, even with fairly large inoperable tumors. It is good that they found the tumor by chance while it is smaller. That will almost certainly give him more options for treatment and a bit more time so that the two of you can interview multiple neurosurgeons & pick the one you feel most comfortable with. Hang in there & keep us posted.

peace & prayers,

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   Posted 1/4/2009 5:51 AM (GMT -6)   
swtpeach said...
Since then I have had a hard time dealing with life. On the outside I appear *somewhat* okay. But I am struggling.  This is hard to admit, but I tend to think the worst about everything. I worry about things that are out of my control (dying and leaving my kids motherless, losing a loved one, etc ...).
i understand about putting on an appearance to get by- most of us do that all the time. it also sounds like you have Health Anxiety- you should check out the Anxiety/Panic forum as they have heaps of info on Health Anxiety and how to decrease your symptoms.
all the best,
Maz XX
            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
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Date Joined Jul 2008
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   Posted 1/4/2009 7:56 AM (GMT -6)   

Depression doesnt cause pain, its the other way around but it can make it worse. I would get your sypmtoms reassessed as some of what you say sounds like fibro and you may need diff meds than  youre on.  I ALWAYS build up sinareos in my head always with the worse poss ending my doc says I should mention it to my phyc as it is a condition and has a name. Anyways dont know if ive helped much but take care .... sue2z

Fibromyalgia, ulcerative colonitus, arthritus, bi-polar
norspan patch, valium, prothiedon, lyrica

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