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Date Joined Jan 2009
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   Posted 1/7/2009 9:27 AM (GMT -6)   
I have never opened up to complete strangers before.  I feel like a weak individual doing it now but don't care.  I've read some of the posts on this website and know that my issues are not near as bad as some of you, however, that doesn't seem to help.  I have sufferred from depression for many years now.  I honestly don't know how much longer I can deal with it.  I take 2 medications for this but still have many many bad days.  Years ago, my family use to tell me to just snap out of it.  Oh, how I wish is was that easy.  I am so sad and unhappy and can't see the point in going on.  I would never commit suicide, however, I don't have the will to live.  Logically, I know that I have a lot of reasons to be thankful for what I have but the depression takes over so bad that the logic doesn't reach my heart.  I wish I could just stay in my room and sleep my life away.  I can't remember the last time I felt really happy.  The only small happiness I have is through my children (ages, 27, 19 and 17) but even that doesn't last for long.  I am miserable in my marriage but don't know if that is just the depression talking or if I would be better off out of the marrriage.  I have worked full time and hard since I was 18 years old and find it harder and harder to continue to work.
I've tried getting involved in community activities but eventually my depression and anger always gets in the way and I end up making things worse.
I know there really isn't anything that can make me better but do appreciate having this forum to express my true feelings.  I have no one that I can talk to about this.

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   Posted 1/7/2009 10:27 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Alwaysblue,

I am so happy that you have found us. I find writing here really helps me to get things out. And being that we are anonomous(sp), it makes it so much easier. Sometimes just posting helps me, but getting the replies makes it so much better. So I hope that we can help you even if it is just a little.

Take life one day at a time. Gradually you will start to feel better. It is so hard when you are depressed, especially when the anger steps in. But it sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders and are handling this quite well.

Remember that you are a special person and that you are truly loved by your family and friends. You have a lot to live for and to be happy for.

I wish you the most wonderful day.

Hugs, Karen
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Date Joined Apr 2008
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   Posted 1/7/2009 10:57 AM (GMT -6)   
I've posted on others post and I feel like you, I have so many days I wish the world would pass me by, but I get up and for a while and something makes me smile for a few.. I've waited for my grand kids seance I was young and I look in their little eyes and it makes getting up worth it... smilewinkgrin I have two boys and its fun watching their little minds figure out things...And like you I've had my family tell me to stop being so silly, and I just ignore them.. I know its hard on my H, and kids, and I keep some of my feelings to my self or I come here, I find here strangers understand sometimes more than my family... And here we really do know how you feel...

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   Posted 1/7/2009 6:13 PM (GMT -6)   


Hello and welcome to HealingWell.  It always amazes me that all of us with depression go through so many of the same things.

People tell us to snap out of it then we feel it is our own fault and we end up on this merry-go-round of trying to figure out what to do.  Welcome to the family.  The good part is every day members of HealingWell recover their Self-esteem, their self-worth, their dreams, their pride, their dignity and a meaningful life.

Are you in therapy?  Many of our members are in therapy or they use the free online therapy:

The MoodGym Training Program


and there new one


Take a look at those and see if working through one of those helps you.

Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.

Again welcome to Healing Well



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