I wasn't thinking there'd be so many replies this fast.. Well I met some of you on the chat tool, so nice to meet you all, and thank you for the 'welcomes'.
@getting by (Karen if im not mistaken?),
thank you for the website recommendation I checked the link out, and it seems like it might be useful.. To be honest i first approached it thinking "oh I bet this won't be helpful at all, its one of those cliched psychological help providers but it wont work on me at all" but then it analyzes everything in a logical way and not in a cliche way too, so I'm actually rather positive about it..
I haven't gone for any counseling, I don't really feel comfortable talking about myself normally, especially when speaking out loud.. writing on a website is so much different, its way easier.
You asked for me to talk about myself in chat, I couldn't do that that much, I guess I got a little nervous, but thank you for trying to help out. And I also liked your writing "Thoughts", you write in a way that makes it really easy to read.
Well actually I have talked to some friends about this, and I asked them to be honest. That guy friend I mentioned (who is a great speaker), told me I'm pretty bad at expressing myself verbally, and I need to improve.. This is so important to me because I want to be active politically, I go to forums, meet new people and when I do those if I can't talk well then even if I have so much knowledge it is of no use if I can't make an effective speech.. I am better at writing, but speaking, especially in public is so hard for me.. Let alone political issues, even when I just chat about random stuff, I get nervous even with people I know, and I say things that doesn't reflect my actual inner self at all...
I've never heard of art therapies, and I draw, so that sounds pretty interesting to me.. I'm glad it worked on you..
Well I am hoping my feelings for this guy will pass, because it really puts a pressure on me all the time.. It has almost become like a habit, to think of him all the time and to analyze each of his actions deeply even when it is something simple of no importance...
Nice to meet you, thank you for the information, I am also glad I've found you.. I never thought I'd be able to share the things I write with people, but I am, and it is great that there are people willing to listen and give advice, even if it is on the internet.
Hello, sure I'd like to talk. Someone to talk to helps get through so many things.. You're right, I have to learn to look at things from a positive perspective.. I really know that I have to do this, I can only hope I'll be able to apply it into actual life..
You don't know how great it is to find someone relating to yourself so well.. Yeah I really don't know why I'm like this too! It's as if I'm a different person when I'm by myself, and when I'm with other people I can never put my real self out there. Even when I get talkative its usually someone else speaking but not my actual self.. If you see what I mean..
I usually don't show my anger, but I find myself angry and tense with unimportant issues..
I haven't had any help for communication no.. Do you mean something like public speaking classes?