Hey everyone posted a bit on the parkinsons forum for my father who has earlyonset PD and saw that there was a forum for deppression. Just thought I would put a bit on here too.
I have had severe deppression and been on medication for 12 years now although being in new zealand our medications may not be as proficent as overseas although I see that some people are on effexor which I take myself after prozac stopped working for me after 8 years I was devestated noone told me that they would stop working.
I just want to say my view on suicide cause I feel that I would like to share I went through this and after overdosing unsuccesfully several times I am now very grateful for this I will tell you why.
10 years ago my ex partner commited suicide exactly 1 month after his older brother, over this I slid right into a very deep depression and had a breakdown ending up in a mental institute. I know that it is hard not to think this way sometimes but after seeing what these 2 young men put their family through it really made me think long and hard. They left behind a little sister and loving mother who has never fully recovered and loving father I just want everyone to try think about what you leave behind the devestation that friends and family have to go through is huge and they will probably never really get over it.
I have had that amazing feeling when you have made that decision it feels like an amazing weight lifted off your shoulders it is extremely hard to think any other way but at the end of the day we are all here for a reason and we shouldnt be the ones to make the decision of life or death.
I just want to say PLEASE if anyone ever feels this way please get help I still havent found the light at the end of the tunnel but still looking and just try to deal with those ups and downs best I can