I know that you don't want to hear this, but I think that you need medications. I do and will for the rest of my life. I know that isn't what you want, but sometimes we have no choice. It sounds like depression is sneaking up on you and you don't want to have to go through all of that again.
I would talk to the doctor and see what they say. I am glad that you are still taking the xanax. I take it and it really helps. I am down to half of what I use to take though so that is good.
Get ahold of your doctor and get back on your meds. I hope that this helps some and that you feel better soon.
I see this is your first post so I would like to welcome you to the forum. You will find a lot of kind and compassionate people here. I think that you will fit right in with the rest of the members. We are so glad that you joined us.
Take care, keep posting. There is an introductory thread that I will bump up for you to post on.
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