You did have some good days though, That will come back. And the bad days will be less. Just hang in there during the hard times when depression shows it's ugly face. It will be less and less.
I hope that you get to see your doctor soon. I know it is frustrating when you can't see them when you need to.
Try to dismiss these thoughts. You know that you don't want to think that way so put up that mental stop sign and stop them in their tracks. I know that it is easier said than done. But you were feeling good and that will come back when you refuse to feel badly. Keep trying, you will get there and like I say, the bad days will be less and less. You are just going through that transition period.
Best wishes for a good day.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies