Hi Spanners and Attie,
Welcome to the depression forum on HealingWell. I am so happy that you both have joined us.
Attie, you are right, manic depression and bipolar are the same thing. And I think that you gave Spanners good advice. It is very possible that her mother is in denial and doesn't want her to have medication or to be 'depressed'. I wish that people could realize that it isn't that we are messed up, we just have a chemical imbalance.
I agree that Spanners should get ahold of the mental health counselor that she was seeing and get medication for herself. I think that it is needed.
Spanners, try not to hurt yourself. You don't deserve it. You are a special person and you should treat yourself kindly. You don't deserve the pain that you are putting yourself through.
I hope that you both stay with us. This is really a wonderful forum. The people here are kind and compassionate. They don't judge you.
Spanners, you might be interested in checking out the bipolar forum too. Like Attie said, read as much as you can about it to learn what you are dealing with.
Keep posting, we are here for both of you. There is an introductory thread if you would like to post on it.