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Date Joined Jan 2009
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   Posted 1/18/2009 5:35 PM (GMT -6)   
I feel really sad all the time. I cant see the point in doing anything. I dont want to get up, i dont want to eat, i cant sleep. Its like im not even me anymore. I hit myself, and burn myself, and do anything i can, just to make myself feel alive. My dad left when i was a kid after being abusive and violent (it wasnt really bad) then i got a scholarship to a posh senior school, but i got bullied so bad i ended up in hospital a couple of times, before having a nervous breakdown and getting kicked out. I know, its not that bad compared with other peoples lives, but i just cant cope. Im sorry. I just cant. I have counselling, and they said i might be bi-polar, or just have "manic depression" ? i dont know what any of this means. But i havent heard from them for ages, they said they might give me medicine, but im confused. they are talking to my mum, but she doesnt think theres a problem. i dont have any friends. my life has been really wierd for a while, ever since i left my old school. i cant carry on doing this. i need somone, or something, just to make it worthwhile, or explain what the hell has happened to me. i was popular, i had the perfect boyfriend, i was a cheerleader, i was on the county netball team. how did everything go so wrong. help me. please.

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Date Joined Jan 2009
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   Posted 1/18/2009 6:43 PM (GMT -6)   

Hi Spanner,

Gosh, I don't know what to say.  I'm new to all this - I'm the spouse of a recently diagnosed depressed person.  All I can think to suggest is learn as much as you can about bipolar disorder (I thought Manic-depressive was the same thing as bipolar - am I wrong?).  Could your mom be in denial?  It sounds like you might have to seek medical assistance without her.  Maybe contact or go back to your conselor or your primary care physican and explain the situation and the challenges of getting your mom's support.  Have him/her guide you in the right direction.  Again, I'm new to this and might be way off.   

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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 1/18/2009 6:55 PM (GMT -6)   

Hi Spanners and Attie,

Welcome to the depression forum on HealingWell.  I am so happy that you both have joined us. 

Attie, you are right, manic depression and bipolar are the same thing.  And I think that you gave Spanners good advice.  It is very possible that her mother is in denial and doesn't want her to have medication or to be 'depressed'.  I wish that people could realize that it isn't that we are messed up, we just have a chemical imbalance. 

I agree that Spanners should get ahold of the mental health counselor that she was seeing and get medication for herself.  I think that it is needed. 

Spanners, try not to hurt yourself.  You don't deserve it.  You are a special person and you should treat yourself kindly.  You don't deserve the pain that you are putting yourself through.

I hope that you both stay with us.  This is really a wonderful forum.  The people here are kind and compassionate.  They don't judge you. 

Spanners, you might be interested in checking out the bipolar forum too.  Like Attie said, read as much as you can about it to learn what you are dealing with.

Keep posting, we are here for both of you.  There is an introductory thread if you would like to post on it. 

Hugs, Karen

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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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