Thanks for your comment. We are financially in pretty good shape. I make a decent income and can change from part to full time if I need to. Your response really touched a nerve in me about moving on. I think the only thing that keeps me from doing so is my younger son, who is 17 and a junior in high school, and he still needs stability. He has been very helpful and supportive to his father, but I see that he is tired of it as well. My husband left this morning for the week to go skiing, alone, because he wanted to. All I can think of is that it will be so nice for my son because he can have his friends over this week without worrying about my husband on the internet, gambling, with the television tuned to a sporting event. I probably do need a break from it all, but don't have the courage to disrupt my son. He has plenty of his own stress from sports and advanced high school courses. We own the home my mom lives in so I could stay with her if I wanted, but my son needs to be close to his school and she lives 35 miles from here. I keep trying to tell myself to hang in there for one more year and make a life of my own in the meantime. I play soccer a couple times a week, and that helps. I also go to my son's sporting events, and that helps too, but I just hate the weekends.....tv, sports, beer, and gambling. It sucks. The worst part is that I am the only support my husband has. After he collapsed this summer, his family, who are awful in normal circumstances, all scattered. His brother, 10 miles from here, stopped calling or coming over. We have seen him twice since summer and had two phone calls since July. I feel terribly guilty that if I give up, there won't be anyone for my husband at all. Does that make sense?