Taryn, I understand how you are feeling and I am sorry you are struggling right now. It would help if you had more support from your family. I think Karen is right. Maybe you need some meds. Do you like your therapist? And is your therapist helping you? If not there are many others out there that may be better for you. You say you don't know what you want to study in college. But remember you are still young and your 1st yr in college you will not have to decide on a major. You should have until your jr. year to decide what you want to study. Another thought is maybe there is another type of study you would like to do. For example work in a hospital operating some of the many machines that are used for tests. It is a way to help people. Just a suggestion. And the courses to learn these things are just as intense and require 4 yrs of school too. Getting over depression takes tiime and you need to keep working with your therapist. Maybe going away to college and being in a different environment will help you to feel better. I wish I had more ideas for you but please remember you don't feel better overnight and you have to work at trying to get better. Please know that we all care about you and hope you will keep posting so we know how you are doing. Please be good to yourself.