I have had depression all my life, and at some point, anxiety.
But the worst anxiety began right after I got out of the hospital for hernia surgery. There were 2, because the first one did not take.
The anxiety seemed to get worse, and I had to get rid of my puppies to a no-kill shelter because they were aggravating my anxiety.
It seemed like an eternity, but I got to see my psychiatrist. A week prior, he wrote me a prescription for Klonopin, because Ativan or Xanax was not working for me.
After a few days, the Klonopin seemed to calm me down some.
But now, I still worry about finances and my father's health, he's 78 and I don't know how much time he has left. I have nobody except my mentally disabled brother.
My worry has added on sadness and more depression. It's worse at night, since I cannot sleep past 2 or 3 am with sleep-aids.
I've been on Wellbutrin (then generic) since the year 2000. It seemed to help. I am up to 300mg and it's not really doing the job anymore.
I also started Lexapro Jan.22, 2008.
So, I am taking:
I guess being sad is a tad better than being on edge all of the time, although I do still get anxiety attacks.
I know there is no advice that can really help me, because I am stuck in a rut, taking care of my father and disabled brother. If something happens to my father, I'll be alone (because my brother cannot talk or anything) and will have to move to a poor house. I fear the idea of being alone. i was always a loner, sure, I had friends, but I always wanted time for myself. But since I got this anxiety I need more support. I am trying to get support but it's not enough.
I want to get over my dispair, fear, worry, anxiety and enjoy life again. Otherwise, what's the point?