Thanks Karen, but I really dont deserve all of that. I have a great day yesterday, until I got home. My mom was in a very bad mood and we had an argument and it made me run to my room and cry rivers. It made all the feels I've had this week come flooding back. This part Im not sure about
putting on here, but there is a bright side, I'll try to be discrete...(if not then it can be deleted) I just couldnt handle it anymore. I wanted to sleep to get away from the yelling and stuff. I wasnt going to hurt myself. I took several medications and I shouldnt have, but did. Well, I told my 2 friends who talked to me.
Something was going on with my lil brother, he was hurting. So, I went and laid in bed with him and we talked alot. I can tell how unhappy he is. Ironically, he told me that he went and had been talking to the school counselor, just like I did last year. It made me sad to know my lil bro feels the same. He feels like my parents dont care and such. (this is because they dont express there love, or say it or anything, no hugs or kisses, or i love you's) so, he feels sad. And it really hurt me because I know what thats like.
And, I learned my lesson. The medicines made me really dizzy, and calm, and sleepy(still fightin to keep my eyes
open), and gave me a horrible stomach ache. I promised them I wouldnt do that again. At the time I was so mad and needed something or someone to help and that was the wrong choice. A bad choice on my part. And I know I deserve everything that has happened because of it. And I dont think I will try that...it helped, but then it hurt, it sure wasnt worth it.
So, for anyone who feels like that, its not worth it to handle things that way. I feel it was a stupid choice and I take responsibility for the concequences. How I feel today is a direct result of a bad choice on my part... so, I suppose thats what I learned. But, thats my new story. (in a series of stories that occur after school!) lol
Hope everyone has a sleepy-free day! (unlike me!)
Lyrica and Paxil (both working quite well might I add!)
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."