I just need to vent and am so glad for these boards. I have been dealing with depression, on and off, for quite some time. Since my forties, it seems to have gotten worse. Like a lot of other people, I am coping with financial problems right now and wondering what I am going to do with the rest of my life, at age 54! I still look pretty good, but I am getting to the point where I feel I have nothing to look forward to. I have been a legal secretary for my entire life and it was not something I chose, but rather fell into. Last year, after almost becoming homeless, I inherited some money from a trust fund, which came at just the right time. I have been trying and trying to think of something I can do that I really enjoy, but I have two misdemeanors on my record, both involving alcohol. I really love to drive and thought about cab driving or driving an 18-wheeler! But, I have a DUI back in 2002 and in 2001, a public intoxication. Right now, I am delivering pizza, and I only work 20 hours or so a week. I have about $28,000 in savings and am trying to decide what to do! If anyone has any suggestions, please post.
I have been lying aorund my house watching TV and have not even showered in two days!!! I can't get up the motivation to even get in the shower and go to the gym or outside.
I really don't want to go back on antidepressants because they really didn't help me; 5 htp is helping me sleep well, but it's the motivation factor I can't seem to overcome.
I have been looking into selling on ebay or starting a business that way. One thing I know for sure: I do not EVER want to set foot in a law firm again!!!!