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Rochelle Paul
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   Posted 2/25/2009 6:48 PM (GMT -6)   
Hiya there. :))
Im almost 16 years old and live in a small town in a small state. I come from a pretty tough background with an abusive alcoholic father involved in some crazy stuff, but now I live, in my opinion, a great life. Today I was diagnosed with depression and am completely taken aback by it. I have to find a counsler now, and possibley start medication. 
I noticed this past sophmore year has been extremely tough for me to get through. In comparison to who I was the past years Im a completely different person. Im socially awkward, off to the side afraid of getting in the way, and am completely concious of what im doing and whos watching me. My weight hadn't bothered me for a bit, but its back with vengance against my self-esteem. I find it hard to make friends now with me being to timid. I got over it years ago, now its coming back. 
Im better this month, but the past few months i struggled wit.  but Its just sorta hard to deal with life and people. The few friends I have are dropping like flies, and I have anxiety like no other with these events occuring.
Im frustrated and angry I can't control myself, my thoughts, my mood, even my body. I feel defective and I never want to complain to anyone in fear of annoying them and leaving me. I don't want to talk to my mom about a lot of the pain i feel, not just emotionally but physically because of her Fibrmyalgia. (which btw is how i found this site)
I guess I kinda just need to relate to some people and know Im not quite as alien as i feel. shocked

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 2/25/2009 5:28:18 PM (GMT-7)

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   Posted 2/25/2009 7:40 PM (GMT -6)   

Rochelle Paul

Welcome to HealingWell and the Depression Forum.  You will find many members here who will be willing to respond to your posts in your thread.  We also have chat on Tuesday's and you will see the reminder posted on Mondays.

Again welcome and please do join in. 

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   Posted 2/25/2009 7:51 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Rochelle,

Welcome to HealingWell.

How about talking to your counselor at school? You really need to talk to somebody with an objective ear. Somebody that can give you some direction. Either that or talk to your doctor and maybe they can hook you up with somebody that can listen.

I think that your mom would probably want to know what is going on with you. Even though she has fibromyalgia. I have it too and if my daughter were suffering as you are, I would want to know so that I could help her. So consider talking to your mom, if you feel that you can. I really wish that you would try.

I hope that you feel better soon. Don't feel alone, you have us now to talk to. And everybody here cares about you.

Hugs, Karen
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

Rochelle Paul
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Date Joined Feb 2009
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   Posted 2/25/2009 10:27 PM (GMT -6)   
The people at my school kinda suck.. but my moms looking into a couple that the insurence cover. I have a very good relationship with my mom, and she knows everything now, not every last detail, but pretty much everything.
Its just kinda hard to share when she has enough on her plate already :/

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   Posted 2/25/2009 10:43 PM (GMT -6)   
I am so happy that you and your mom have such a good relationship. And I understand why you wouldn't want to add any stress to her life.

I think it is great that you are setting up counseling. I think you are heading in the right direction.

I admire your decision not to add to your mom's stressors. I know that things like that make your pain worse. So you are wise. I hope that you can work through this with counseling. I go and it helps a lot.

You and your mom are very fortunate to have eachother. I admire that.

Hugs, Karen
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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   Posted 2/27/2009 3:35 PM (GMT -6)   
Well, first off, welcome to HW. Second, I also have depression which allows me to relate to you. But, I also relate to your mom because I also have Fibromyalgia. Im 17. Senior in High school. I've been dealing with depression, anxiety, and all kinds of different things for almost 2 years. Maybe more. But, its been about 2 years since I got really bad... I continue to go up and down. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. My moods change so often. Sometimes Im dead, sometimes half alive. My mind spins so fast I trip and fall on my face. Its pretty bad. But, Im sure I can understand what you are going through if you what to talk about it. You can email me or talk to me on here or IM me, whatever.

My mom and I dont have a good relationship. We dont talk very much. But, I dont like to share a lot of personal info....

If you want to talk, let me know. Take Care
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