Hiya there. :))
Im almost 16 years old and live in a small town in a small state. I come from a pretty tough background with an abusive alcoholic father involved in some crazy stuff, but now I live, in my opinion, a great life. Today I was diagnosed with depression and am completely taken aback by it. I have to find a counsler now, and possibley start medication.
I noticed this past sophmore year has been extremely tough for me to get through. In comparison to who I was the past years Im a completely different person. Im socially awkward, off to the side afraid of getting in the way, and am completely concious of what im doing and whos watching me. My weight hadn't bothered me for a bit, but its back with vengance against my self-esteem. I find it hard to make friends now with me being to timid. I got over it years ago, now its coming back.
Im better this month, but the past few months i struggled wit. but Its just sorta hard to deal with life and people. The few friends I have are dropping like flies, and I have anxiety like no other with these events occuring.
Im frustrated and angry I can't control myself, my thoughts, my mood, even my body. I feel defective and I never want to complain to anyone in fear of annoying them and leaving me. I don't want to talk to my mom about a lot of the pain i feel, not just emotionally but physically because of her Fibrmyalgia. (which btw is how i found this site)
I guess I kinda just need to relate to some people and know Im not quite as alien as i feel.
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