Li is right on............... get yourself out of that hole and start being proactive my dear friend. You are a wonderful person with depression. You are like most of us here. We fight daily and then again we have some long runs of success.
A human being is a goal-oriented animal. The mind needs a focus to target. Without a focus, the mind wanders around. Achieving goals gives a sense of self-esteem and satisfaction. This cannot be obtained anywhere else. To feel good because we have done something creditworthy is a great medicine. It elevates our mind. It gives us new vigor and new joy. When we feel good about ourselves and get assured about our abilities, it removes negativities from the mind. That helps fight depression to a great extent.
Do not set very high goals. If you fail to achieve them, you will feel worse. try to set small goals that are achievable. After setting these goals, write them and keep the paper with you most of the times. From time to time, read the goals again and keep planning and implementing strategies to achieve the goals. As you begin achieving the goals, you will begin feeling good. Reference: Mohatta, CD "Goals - They Can Fight Your Depression."
I always write lots of small goals, just brainstorm in your own mind and nothing is to silly or wrong to write down. Look for a job, one with little stress other then getting out of bed and going to the job. Take one that is very casual part time, maybe only a few hours a week to start with.
Most of all believe in yourself and know you can come here and vent anytime you want too. We care.
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression
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