It sounds like it might be time to go to a doctor and see about some medication or some counseling. You need support through this. It sounds like the depressive episodes are continuing to come back. So if I were you I would do that. Plus a complete physical might be in order, to rule out anything else.
I hope that you continue to post, HealingWell can be a good supportive place to come. We will always look out for your best welfare.
Let us know how things are going for you.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies