I am sorry sorry I wasn't here for you this morning. It sounds like you're having a tough time thinking about
The appointment with your pdoc sounds like this could be triggering you to get really anxious. I wish there was something I could say that could stop you having to feel this way. Though there is nothing-you are not alone hun. The thought of a new doc must be terrifying. I've been there myself, but eventually you get there, you get to know them, it's just the first step is always so hard.
I can understand how badly you want to be off the meds, that you don't want to be reliant on them. It must have been a hard choice for you to think about
not taking them, but it's a harder decision to keep taking them. There is no advice here, because whether you take meds or not should be your choice. But, if I was in the same situation, I think I would be reluctant to actually stop the meds if stopping them is doing harm. That would be my choice, though does not have to be yours.
I'm glad you feel comfortable enough to come here and vent. I'm glad there is somewhere you can talk about
your problems. I know we may not be there right by your side, but we are here in spirit for you.
I've probably not said much to help. But I just wanted to let you know someone was here thinking of you, and wishing you could feel calmer.
I hope things are better today.
I'm around on MSN, though hiding. I won't be up late though-I've been too tired this week. But, just say hello when you need to talk-if I am awake, I'll talk to you no problem hun.
EDIT: You know, that took me 10 minutes to write, as your latest post wasn't there when I started typing Christi. I'm getting slower lol
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Diagnosed with: Cystic Fibrosis, Asthma, ABPA, Clinical Depression, Mild Liver Cirrohsis, Mild Osteopenia, Erythema Nodosum. Waiting for final diagnosis on Muscular Dystrophy type symptoms.
Medication: Creon 10,000, Vitamins A,D+E, Serevent, Salbutamol, Paracetamol, Ondansetron, Nefopam, Ursodeoxycholic Acid, Lofepramine, Slow-Sodium, Azithromycin, Ciprofloxacin, Omeprazole, Tobi Ineb, Fresubin Liquid Feed, Skandishakes. I use PEP device as my physio.
Had a Port-a-cath fitted on chest wall since Nov 05
Sometimes, I feel that I should go and play with the thunder - then I get scared and run away.