Well, today I was awake by 8:00 but I layed in bed a little longer. Long story short I was up, showered, and dressed by 9:30. Usually I don't get out of bed till 10:00. I would think that is an accomplishment. Now, I haven't done anything since, but at least I made some progress, I even have my make up on and ate breakfast.
I do have a confession to make though and I can't believe I'm telling you this. I called my pharmacy last week and refilled my hydrocodone and I ended up taking them all. I felt horrible when I ran out. Then today when I got up I remembered there was another pharmacy we used between my hospitalizations so I called them and I have a refill on another script
for hydrocodone that I forgot I had. I had them refill it and I'm tempted to go pick it up. I know it's wrong and I know I shouldn't do it but I feel like I can't help myself. I feel even better when I take those. The script
that I ran out of I can't refill till Monday and it has 60 on it but since I can't get it until Monday that's what made me remember the other pharmacy. They are all legit script
s from my hospitilization. I just forgot about
them because I kept getting hospitalized and having more surgery for my complications and they kept giving me more. I don't know why I want these pills, I'm afraid I am dependent on them but I don't know how to stop it.
opening up another can of worms....then I get depressed thinking how much of a mess I really am...
35 years old
Chronic Lifetime Constipation
Diagnosed IBS - 1995
Rectal Prolapse - February 2007
Rectosigmoid Colectomy w/low anterior Anastomosis - March 13, 2007
Diagnosed with Colonic Inertia - June 08
Total Colectomy - September 22, 2008
Temporary Ileostomy due to small bowell perforation Septepmber 29, 2008
Ileostomy Reversal - December 15, 2008
Multiple Small Bowel Abscesses-December 22, 2008
Leak at original Anastamosis -December 25, 2008
JP Drain removed - January 23, 2009
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