I thought I was calming down, and told the BF I was trying, and I didn't think my meds were working right. Then.....I snapped again. I feel horrible. He let the dog inside, and she brought in snow, and before he could make her stop, she was in the house, past the towel on the floor meant to dry her, and I just snapped and yelled. So we both had it out, and yelled for a minute, then I guess it hit him that something was really wrong (I don't cry a lot, even when I get mad) so he sat down and gave me a big hug and told me to tell him what's going on. So it's all out in the open. I told him really, I'm trying to be nice, to keep it together, but I feel like I'm losing it. What a good BF he is though. He said he knows I'm not like this, so he understands.
Thanks for listening, again. It's calmed me down just to get this out of my head. I've stopped crying, I'm calm again. I'm going to call my dr in the morning. I can't be like this for 3 more days. He, or anyone else, doesn't deserve the wrath of me right now!
31 yr old female-dx with Crohn's in '97 after emergency resection and appendectomy, 2nd resection '05
Currently on Humira, Prilosec, Effexor, Calcium, Vit D, sublingual B12