Im glad you dont feel so alone anymore. We are all here for you whenever you need to vent. Talking helps alot, especially when the person/people understand. I experienced depression at your age, but it wasnt as severe as it is now, or used to be.
I take Paxil for mine. I went to my doctor and told him, he gave me one thing that worked at first, but stopped after a month or two so I switched. I think I need a dose change for my Paxil, but I've started seeing a therapist so Im going to wait and see if she can help me also, without having to up the dosage.
I was also wondering about
your parents. As about
2 years ago I told my mom and she told me it was normal, just a phase, something everyone had. (I dont know about
your family, but mine is not close AT ALL) And one day we seen a show about
a girl who cut herself and it scared me because I kept thinking "if I dont get help I'll end up like her" so I begged my mom to let me see a therapist or something, a doctor whatever. She still insisted it was nothing. One day I said to her "what if I end up like that girl(the one who cut herself)?" and she got a "mad sounding tone" and said to me "if you dont stop talking crazy Im going to pack your bags and send you somewhere".... After that I never mentioned it again.
So, I have done everything I have without the support of my parents. Who are only now taking an interest in it, because they know I am seeing a therapist. I couldnt wait til I was 16 and could drive myself, I felt that was the freedom and independence I needed to get myself help. And its worked out. I call the doctor, get refills, drive myself, go to the pharmacy, go to therapy and all that, by myself. At your age, thats not really possible. SO, you need to find someone you can talk to.
I think that would help alot. Maybe an aunt or cousin..an older friend or someone you trust that you think will take you seriously. That person can take you to the doctor.. My therapist, where I go, I noticed a sign that said anyone under 13 would have to have someone with them, but you are older than that, so its possible for you to see someone if you need to, as far as I know....
I tried to talk to my mom. It didnt work, so I decided for now not to share anything with my parents. Although, my dad seen something I wrote on here one day and he was upset that I felt I couldnt talk to him about
it. But, I prefer doing things by myself, and one day I will share everything with them, when I feel its the right time.
I have done all this without my parents... BUT, I could NEVER have done it without support from others. Everyone on here kept me going.. and some friends I talked with. So, you need to have support, and we can provide some of that, but try someone you can talk to in real life.
Anyways, I have to go, I hope this helps. Take Care
Lyrica(15 months,but working on get out right now) and Paxil(about 6+- months)
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."